This last month has been really hard on me. I had the longest stretch of the hardest days that I have experienced since Kai died. I’m not exactly sure why, but I have been told that many parents find month 4 to be especially difficult. The numbness starts to fade and the pain really sinks… Continue reading “No winter lasts forever; no spring skips its turn. “
I have been working on several posts for the past few weeks. Many of them start off, ‘ I can’t believe it has been almost 2 weeks…1 month…almost 2 months since my last post….’ As I sit down tonight for another attempt I realized it has been exactly 4 months since Kai died. 4… Continue reading 4 months.
Recovery from surgery has been going well. I am still sore but managed to get myself to school and to our monthly Kai’s Village meet up on Thursday. It was a long day, but I did it! School was good. I don’t think I missed to much on my first day. It was nice to… Continue reading Back to School
A few months back I started having some stomach issues. Sometimes nausea sometimes a tightening in my chest that on a bad day traveled to my back. One night at the hospital with Kai I felt so awful I thought I had the flu. I brushed it off a while figuring it was just stress.… Continue reading Surgery
I have reflecting back on my life with Kai lately. The things we did together, the choices I made for him. All along the way letting go of little pieces, bit-by-bit, of what I though life would be. Becoming a chemo mom, the mom of a child who may not survive, you learn to let… Continue reading Fear of commitment
Last week Kai’s Village, Andrea and I, went to Umass to talk with the child life specialists about how we can get connected and help the families there. The Child Life director was very happy to meet with us and was even more excited when I told him how important it is to me to… Continue reading I am a visitor here
2012 It’s hard to look back and fully comprehend how different life is from a year ago. Last year Kai was here. Kai played. He smiled and snuggled. We were settling in to this crazy world of pediatric cancer. We were staying the course and sticking to his chemo. He was stable. A year ago… Continue reading 2012
{ Chateau Frontenac – Quebec City } After an overnight pit stop in VT (due to weather) we made it to Quebec City. Our Hotel is absolutely beautiful, a giant old Chateau right in the heart of the old city. The entire place is decked out with tasteful holiday decor, soft warm light, complimentary hot… Continue reading travel log: Canada
This week has been full of ups and downs. There are so many wonderful positive things happening with Kai’s Village keeping me busy. It’s amazing to see Kai’s spirit living on in the work we are doing to help others. It has also been overwhelming at times. So much is happening so fast that it… Continue reading Away for the holidays
Today was kind of a numb day. I have been keeping myself so busy lately but I realized today that I have not been doing any ‘real life’ normal things. Iv been running around doing a bunch of nothing. Going to places I don’t normally go. Buying things I don’t really need. Seeing people I… Continue reading Christmas lights through the fog
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