The bitter cold finally settled in over Massachusetts this week. I really don’t care for the cold but the past few weeks of mild winter weather were starting to get to me. All I could think was This time last year the world was frozen. This time last year I was in a daze. I was… Continue reading Getting out of bed
Next Year will be Different – 2012 This time last year my family gathered at Children’s Hospital for Kai’s last Thanksgiving. He was so near the end that day I could not help but think how different thanksgiving would be from then on. I could not help but think of all of the families who… Continue reading Next year will be different…too
This is the story of Kai’s death. I wrote it the day after he died and thought about posting it many times before today but was just not ready. Today, a year later, I want to share the last moments I spend with him. Kai’s departure from this world was as labored and long… Continue reading the last breath
I hate that every thought I have, every event I go to, every changing of the seasons all I can think is “this time last year…I was with Kai…” And now the thought that soon I wont be able to say that any more, is devastating in a whole new way. As Kai’s anniversary approaches… Continue reading This time last year | Halloween
Three years ago today my baby boy was born. Kai should be turning 3 today. He should be starting preschool. He should be leanring and growing and celebrating his little life surrounded by family and friends as all three year olds get to do. I can not begin to process how to feel about my… Continue reading Birth-Day
May is Brain Tumor Awareness month. Since the success of the breast cancer campaigns, it seems as though every day, week, month is dedicated to some disease or disorder. Each cause fighting for their 15 minutes in the spotlight. Fighting for funding and research. Fighting for people to pay attention, to understand. It can be… Continue reading Awareness Matters
This last month has been really hard on me. I had the longest stretch of the hardest days that I have experienced since Kai died. I’m not exactly sure why, but I have been told that many parents find month 4 to be especially difficult. The numbness starts to fade and the pain really sinks… Continue reading “No winter lasts forever; no spring skips its turn. “
