While I keep telling Kai that it is ok to let go, to relax and that he doesn’t have to fight anymore
I am so thankful for another day together.
Holding him close.
While I keep telling Kai that it is ok to let go, to relax and that he doesn’t have to fight anymore
I am so thankful for another day together.
Holding him close.
Keikikai 
My kids all said a prayer for Kai tonight before bed including their friend who is sleeping over. We are in awe of his strength and wish him peace. We have fallen in love with your little boy and wish our prayers could cure him. May he be pain free and secure in your loving arms.
There are no words I can say that haven’t already been said by so many. I just want you to know I am sending continued love, thoughts and prayers your way.
Love, Susan R
I am so thankful you are having this time with him, as difficult as it must be. Still praying for peace and love for you, Kai and your family. Kai is such a special little man and so lucky to have you as his momma.
Look at him all snuggled into his mom. Babies live in the present and he is in the one place in the world that is the most safe and comforting. ❤
Absolutely, perfect words:) he’s beautiful!
No words. Sending love, hugs and peaceful thoughts.
Your love is so beautiful. Praying for Kai and you.
I can’t stop looking at these beautiful pictures. You are right, he is perfect.
No words just a lump in my throat and teary eyes as I read your words and look at these pictures of Kai snuggled into his momma. He is so gorgeous and clearly so very in love with his mommy. Keep holding him tight. You and Kai fill my heart and thoughts.
Peace and love be with you during this trial.
Such a handsome little man you have… Cuddling him close is all you need to do right now♥ These pictures are so precious.
Kerri, you, Kai and Mark are the first thing I think of in morning and the last I think of before bed. So many people are holding you close right now. We only wish we could do more… sending love and peaceful moments.
Couldn’t sleep last night…you guys are so close to my soul now…Hugs and love…
Alice
Holding you close. Kai is going to go in his own time. He knows its okay but holds on for some reason we may never know. Sending you much love, light and support. Hugs and kisses to Kai. Love you.
How I wish there was something to say or do to help. All of you are in our thoughts and prayers every minute of the day.
Kerri he looks so peaceful and content. His love for you is obvious. He is your light and always will be.
Jen
Praying for peace for Kai and all of you ❤
Holding you both close to my heart. xoxo
Praying for comfort for Kai and you. Holding you both close to my heart. God bless you!
Peace and comfort to you and your sweet boy. I’m sure there are so many people who, like me have been following along, but not commenting…You should know there is a silent community that is holding you in their hearts and shedding tears with you.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful mother son bond. It’s breathtaking to see & these pictures are priceless. May angels surround you both & lift you up ❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing your beautiful blog and amazing son. I have been reading your blog for several weeks now and I always felt helpless after doing so. Today I wanted to send you a message of peace, comfort and love. I have never met you, I found your blog on a friends facebook page. But I have learned you are truly amazing and your son is so lucky to have such a loving, giving, and comforting mother. I pray for you and Kai daily, he is such a precious baby boy.
Kerrie,
He is by far the most beautiful little boy. My heart goes out to you and your family. As in a previous post Kai will determine when it is time for him become an angel looking over you and to become your protector. Live in the moment, for the moment.
Susan from Camp Sunshine
The last picture is breathtaking. There are no words. Only to summarize by saying pure love. Skin to skin contact and kissing him all over is what i envision.
Dear Kerrie,
I don’t know if you remember me..but we met when Kai was very little – just briefly at Cradle, the mother-baby center I directed in Northampton. Through your blog, I have noticed too that you are close with several mamas I still am blessed to have in my life. My heart truly aches for you. Words are few but as a mother and as someone who has held other mothers as they have lost babies through miscarriage, stillbirth and childhood illnesses, I send all the compassion in my heart for you, for Kai and for all those who love and cherish you both.
I send you too a poem that I have turned to through many losses. It has somehow helped me to be brave. You are not alone nor is Kai. All who love are holding you gently in this time of ebb and flow, of clinging and releasing. Peace sweet mother. Peace sweet baby boy.
In Blackwater Woods
by Mary Oliver
Look, the trees
are turning
their own bodies
into pillars
of light,
are giving off the rich
fragrance of cinnamon
and fulfillment,
the long tapers
of cattails
are bursting and floating away over
the blue shoulders
of the ponds,
and every pond,
no matter what its
name is, is
nameless now.
Every year
everything
I have ever learned
in my lifetime
leads back to this: the fires
and the black river of loss
whose other side
is salvation,
whose meaning
none of us will ever know.
To live in this world
you must be able
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it
against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.
One more mama thinking of you. With peace.
I found your page on Facebook and reading every day. ..i’m so speachless. ..i’ve two little boys and thinking of what you and Kai must go through. ..it hurts and makes me crying and also praying for all of you. …your love is so amazing. ..i can only say i love you and Kai and sent you a big kiss. ..
Nicole from Germany
Sending a hug, as I feel I have no words right now to express what’s on my mind…
Its amazing how much I have grown to love and care for Kerri and Kai. My heart aches for both of them, always in my thoughts and prayers.
E. Lopes and family
Dear Kerri, thank you for sharing these pictures, I have been looking at them all day. The last one is the deepest felt expression of love I have ever seen. My heart goes out to you, and to your sweet baby boy. May he be pain free, and feeling your love with all his soul. Your skin on his skin, he almost looks like he will just go back inside you, and his soul and his love will be a part of you forever.
It is late night now where I live. And since many days, since Kai looks so incredibly fragile, I have shared my bed with my little daughter, to make sure she is near me. Even from far away your pain is tangible, it must be unbearable – and yet you are there for keiki Kai every minute. I admire you, I try to learn from you, and both you and Kai have given me the knowledge that there is incredible strength in love. I send you all my love, and a gentle hug from my little girl and me to your little boy. You are always in my thoughts.
Anja
sending all my thoughts, strength, prayers, good vibes and all I can your way. Hold his hand, kiss his head, whisper in his ear, love him like you do. Keep it going, you will be together for always.
I love that he is spending every moment just as he wants to and needs to, even with his trademark hand in your shirt! He knows what he needs now, and probably knows what you need too. Sending you so much love, Kerri, and thinking about you always.
Kerri- God bless you and your family. We love you all and are thinking of you always!
Matt and Christene