So i think I’ve dealt with things up to this point pretty well, but tonight is really testing me.

Kai just will not eat.  They are not coming up with much reason why or a really good plan on how to deal with it yet.  I feel like we’re never going to get out of here and it’s starting to wear me down

I have been feeling pretty defeated all day but these past few hours of pinning my screaming baby down so they could try 7 times before get an IV really sent me over the edge!

I know everyone tried their best but watching your baby go through that is agonizing. Really makes me question if we are doing the right thing for him…