It has been an amazingly full weekend of visitors loving on Kai. Everyday I am in awe of just how many people his little life has touched. I am in awe of the generosity, dedication, compassion, and love our village has shown us. Everyday I am just in awe.
It has sometimes felt like a party around here the past few days and I have wondered if people think we are crazy, but there is no stopping the Kai parade! He has been surrounded by laughter and love and light. I have been surrounded by shoulders to lean on, words to comfort me at the end of the day, and brief moments shared that will somehow have to fill a lifetime of memories.
A few weeks ago I had the opportunity to talk with some families who have lost their children to cancer. I listened as they talked about the life and passing of their babies. Some were young and some were teenagers. Some had passed many years and other only months. I listened as these parents glowingly told not just their child’s background, or history, or cancer story but truly described their life and contribution to the world. They described their personality, like and dislikes, how their one child has changed everyone around them. How their child’s life touched people in a way you can never really realize until they are gone.
These parents told stories of how their children’s friends and school commemorate them. How their communities continue to honor them. How their friends and family will never stop missing them. It was all so beautiful and heartbreaking and comforting since I knew we would soon be part of this group.
Hearing these stories made me wonder what I would say about Kai. What stories would I tell of his life and likes and personality. Kai has had a short but bumpy road and the specifics of these traits are blurry sometimes.
It made me sad to think that Kai hasn’t lived enough to make the kinds of memories people will be talking about for years to come. He never got to school or have a first crush, or build a group of friends that would commemorate him. It made me sad to think that as everyone’s lives move on Kai could one day be forgotten to the rest of the world.
I realized I will one day have to tell people, people who never met Kai, that I once had a baby boy named Kai, and that terrifies me.
I talked to one mom specifically about this fear and she said something that really resinated with me. She said there are certain people who don’t want to or can’t handle hearing my stories of Luca, and that’s ok, but if you don’t know Luca you will never fully know me.
And because she does talk about Luca’s life, people still do know him. People are still getting to know him through her, just like I did last week. (Thanks Meghan xox) I think of Luca often now and Iv never met him. I’ve never even met his mom is person, but we are all now connected through sharing our stories of our little boys. This is what happens in the world of pediatric cancer. It never goes away. We all remember, we all continue to fight for a cure, we all still have hope for the babies that are still fighting. We will always talk of our babies when they are gone.
I now realize there is no mistaking Kai’s impact on the world. He has shown us all so much in his few short years. He has changed me forever and I know I am not the only one.
I would give anything to see Kai have the chance to experience a long full life, but today I know he will never be forgotten. He is ingrained in the hearts and memories of so many. He is bringing people together, building bonds that will last a lifetime.
My lifetime.
And so for now we party on. We surround Kai with love. We pack in the hugs and memories to fill a lifetime.
And he is doing a great job indulging us. He has continued to have hours of calm wakefulness. He is able to sleep while three people at a time share his bed and stair at him. And while the pain meds are thankfully working very well, nothing calms him more than being held, grabbing onto a finger and not letting go, touching our skin.
As much as I cherish every moment he is in my arms, i am also thankful for being able to watch him from afar (ok a few feet away) and watch the comfort and love I see when he is in the arms of all who love him.
This has been an amazing time, good and bad. I am so thankful for everyone lifting us up, holding us close, thinking and praying. It is working. Kai is comfortable. We are able to laugh and love and cry and somehow try to make peace with all of this as each day passes.
Keikikai 
Kerri! I will continue to think about you and Kai! I met you when I worked at MoCo and you used to bring Kai in after his acupuncture treatments. I will forever remember you both! His memory will live on in me as well! ❤ Sending you love and light!
Your precious Kai is such an inspiration. I think about him every day and pray for him. Thanks for sharing your precious boy with us.
Love all the pics! Love your Camp Sunshine sweatshirt. Love you!
God Bless all of you. I have not met Kei or you & I will not forget him ever. We have a mutual friend. Another friens of mine saw your blog & copied it to her facebook page so there are more people praying for Kai’s comfort & your everyday with him:) Sweet little boy you have & what an incredible Mom you are:) thinking of you in Middleton,ma. I will tell you since reading about Kai I have stopped several times and thought about what really matters..love, family, friends etc.. We’ll never understand why a sweet young boy had to go thru this but what we do know is he has changed people for the better & that is amazing!! Kai is amazing & you are too:) praying for you on this veterans day. Kai is very lucky to have such a wonderful Mother:)
Dearest Kerri,
Your Kai has certainly built of group of friends that will commemorate him forever. We are virtual friends…but the friendship is unmistakable. I feel like I have known you forever and I have never even met you…same with Kai. I think about him everyday, several times a day. Kai’s life will never be forgotten…I promise you that. My son is 15 months old and I will one day tell him about Kai, the little boy who made me love my own son even more (which I didn’t think was even possible). I consider Kai to be my son’s friend (I am a MoCo mama and my son is a MoCo baby) and I will teach my son to honor the friend that he lost and share that with his other friends. You are an inspiration and you, Kai, and your whole family are in my thoughts and my prayers and you always will be! I promise you that Kai’s life will be commemorated forever. My son and I are sending a virtual hug to Kai, our friend.
~ Mara Jackson (and Brady)
Kerri and Mark, please know that the staff and volunteers of the Notre Dame Pedi Pals Program are praying for all of you. If you would like Jillien our music therapist would be glad to visit with Kia at the hospital, as I know he enjoyed their last meeting. Also, we have on staff a photographer who works with terminally ill children and their families to capture the wonderful, beautiful moments of love and peace. Please let me know if we can help you in any way.
I know we will never forget Kai. His story will be carried on by each of us, and I will think of him every time I think about you, my sweet friend Kerri, and the incredible life that you gave to Kai each and every minute. I hope these special moments of closeness and warmth continue to surround you with peace. Thinking about you always, and sending my love to all of you. Allison
I am one of those people you have never met, but who you and Kai have touched very deeply with your story. I also have a September 2010 baby and somehow found my way to MoCo and that amazing community of mamas. I’m so proud of our village for holding your family up and surrounding you with love. My daughter traced over the last picture in this post with her finger and said “baby”. I told her about Kai, about how he was very sick and would never be able to do the things she could. She cupped my face in her hands and said “I love you, Momma”. Your story reminds me to be so grateful for the amazing blessings in my life. I promise we will always remember Kai and your incredible love for him.
I have just started reading your blog over this past weekend. It saddens me that there are so many children fighting this monster. I have never met you or Kai, but as I type this I am in tears. I will always remember y’all and he will always be remembered by me. Prayers for strength and comfort during this difficult time for your family!!!!
I’ve been wanting to send a message for so long but never knew the words to say. You don’t know me personally but i feel as if I know you and your strength is amazing. Kai is beautiful and so so lucky to have you as a mother. I have been keeping your in my thoughts and will continue to do so.
Your strength, love and light pours through onto everyone. My mom Margaret who was the Director of Family Services at Why Me until her passing would say, “Hold your baby close, hold onto your faith, allow others to hold you up, and she would tell you what an amazing family you all are and what a special little man you have.” May the light, love and comfort during these unimaginable times wrap around all of you. I have passed you by many times, whether sherry’s house or an event and if ever you need anything please email me.
SO glad you have Megan!!! She is one of our dearest friends !!! Love that woman from here to the moon !!!! She will help you in this journey….The Universe is good….Hugs and prayers for you and Kai….Love, alice, lexie and emily
Thank you for sharing Kai with us and this tremendous expression of unconditional love. It really fills my heart to overflowing! Keeping your entire circle of friends and family in my prayers!
Love and prayers for you and your family Kai, NEGU
My little ones (ages 2 and 4) looked on as I read about your precious little boy. It felt like there was some sort of connection between he and them, although they’ve never met. I think children have such intuition and insight beyond what they can verbalize. I believe your little Kai has little ones like mine and all over the world watching over him…they will hold him in their hearts in a special way that only little ones can. Wishing you love and peace.
Kerri, We met last October when you brought Kai down to a crawler’s group after his acupuncture. I did not follow your blog this past year, but heard updates from mutual MoCo friends about how you were doing. These past few days I was alerted by MoCo friends to how things were going, and I have not stopped thinking of you or Kai. Last night after everyone in my house was asleep, I read your entire blog–start to finish. I wanted to know more about him and you–both of you seem so strong and truly amazing and inspiring. Reading your update today made me feel relief that you have been able to celebrate his life this weekend and find some peace, and it also sadden me to know that you’re worry about him being forgotten. I only met you and Kai once, but I will never forget either one of you. Kai’s life and your story (you write so beautifully and honestly) will forever stay with me and shape who I am as a person and as a mother. I am a stranger, but you are in my thoughts and my heart.
Kerri, we met at Camp Sunshine in July where I was a volunteer. You and Kai are in my thoughts and prayers everyday and I will never forget Kai’s smile and the smile he put upon your face when you talk about him. You are such an incredible parent and I envy your strength and courage. You are both such an inspiration to me. Sending love and comfort your way ❤
Kerri, I think we might have met at MoCo one time or another back in 2010. I read your story and Kai’s adventures and my heart goes out to you guys. You’re in my thoughts and my 2 year old looked at Kai and pointed with a huge smile. Kai has touched all of us and he will always be remembered. Thank you for sharing his story!
Kerri, I was e-mailing you when I decided to check your blog first. I am so glad we met at Camp Sunshine in October, and so glad I met Kai. My heart is with yours these days as I have walked part of the same journey as you, needing to be strong for your son when you feel anything but strong. I will be thinking of you both and will keep the picture of Kai’s hand in yours in my heart.
Kerri, Thinking of you, Kei and the whole family. You are an incredibly strong and wonderful mother! Your Mom/Kei’s Grandmom is an inspiration to us here at Sun Life! We all feel we know Kai as “our little fighter” and to see your mom glow with love—we will NEVER forget Kai! Sending love and hugs!
What a beautiful story and what a wonder ful little boy. I know I will never forget Kai. Thank you for sharing. Sending you hugs and prayers. ❤
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Kerri,
There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of Kai …… most of the time
with tears in my eyes (and not only for him but also for yourself, Mark and the rest of your family. He shall not be forgotten as he has touched so very many people in so many different ways. I have only known you for a short time and he has impacted my life so much …… I shall always remember his smile, his laugh and his being. He is a beautiful little boy and was sent to you for a very special reason. Thank you for sharing him with me.
I love this post. You really sound like you’re doing as well as you could be doing, and you recognize that no, Kai most certainly will NOT be forgotten! I’m so glad you have such wonderful family and friends who are supporting you through this horrific journey. Love you… big hugs!!!
Oops… that last reply is from me… Somehow it says “anonymous”…
Thinking of you and your beautiful boy! Xxx
Thank you for sharing your beautiful gift, Kai, with all of us. He will never be forgotten. His beauty and inspiration will live on. Sending you prayers of love, peace and comfort.
Kai is certainly a special little boy who has a wonderful Mother. Both of you have left stories in all of our hearts to share forever. I wish you all lots of peace and happiness, surround that beautiful boy with tears of laughter during this time, he deserves all the love and happiness in the world!
Thank you for the updates, I know how much time it takes…hugs to you all! We love you Kai!!!
xo,
Bre Serakos
m/o Jack
Your precious Kai, and family continue to be in my thoughts daily. I pray you continue to have strength. It is precious to see your family surrounding him with love and comfort. My sister sends her thoughts and prayers as well. Kai has touched me in so very many ways. Treasure each moment just as you are, for each special moment is a gift in itself. May God continue to watch over you and shelter Kai, and all your family during this time and in the weeks, months, years to come.
I will remember Kai forever…thank you for sharing him and your heart with us. Your posts are heartwrenching yet so eloquent and beautiful. Praying always.
With love and hope,
Melissa
By telling his story, you have ensured that Kai will live on for eternity in the hearts of many.
Sappho wrote “You must remember this; someone in some future time will think of us.” In this case, Kai is being commemorated now, and will be forever.
As I have spent many hours reading your blog, shedding many tears and thinking of you, Kai and your family every minute of the day I felt I had to write. I do not know you or Kai personally, though feel I have got to know you through your blog that a mutual friend shared with me. Being a Momma of a 17 month old I can not even imagine what you are going through and how you are feeling or the pain your sweet baby boy is experiencing. I have to say you are an amazing, strong, loving, compassionate women that has a special reason for being placed on this Earth, that being Kai. You are a true inspiration! I have shared your story with my husband, family and friends all who are keeping you, Kai and your circle of family and friends in there thoughts and prayer. I pray that you have many more special moments of love, laughter and peace as each day passes.
I am so glad that you and Kai are surrounded by love at this difficult time. I’m sure Kai can feel it. Please know that Kai will NEVER be forgotten. I will always remember sitting at meals with him at camp and seeing his smile. Sending love, hugs and thoughts of peace.
MP
Kerri,
I am so happy that you and Kai are being surrounded everyday by friends and family. Please know that for every one mama that visits there are 20+ that want to be there and that are with you and Kai in spirit. We are all thinking of you day and night and wishing you love and peace. There is not a night I lay down without you both on my mind and in my prayers and not a morning that begins without you there.
Love and hugs,
Kristin (and the whole WAM/MoCo community… I am pretty sure I can speak for them 🙂
Kerri, Mark and Kai, I have read some of the comments from such loving people. I am happy you are all surrounded by such love. Kai’s story will never be forgotten. It can’t be. Like so many others have explained already Kai has changed their lives. One little boy, a stranger to many, has entered their lives somehow and has dramatically altered the way they think. Think of the impact that will make on the world many years from now. Most of us go through life trying so hard to leave some kind of legacy. Do something or accomplish greatest somehow because that is what we think we have to do to be remembered. Your little boy has taught us all that to leave a legacy, to affect change, all one has to do is LOVE. I have said it before. I have felt Kai’s spirit and I was astonished how something so big could fit in someone so small. Through Kai I have also come to know you and Mark and I’d like to think we have developed a friendship. A friendship I will always hold dear. Thank you. And please thank Kai for me, for all of us. He is a miracle.
Jen M
Kerri,
It was always a get joy to walk into your home every Thursday morning and see you and my favorite little guy. I will miss his smiles. Words cant begin to express what I have learned from Kai and you. It has changed the way I look at my work and my own family….Thank you!
EG
I AM SO GLAD YOU ARE GETTING TO SPEND THIS TIME WITH HIM ,YOU ARE A GREAT AND WONDERFUL MOM ,I JUST DONT SEE MYSELF BEING ABLE TO DO ALL OF THESE THINGS . MY HEART BREAKS FOR YOU AND KAI KNOWING THAT HE WILL NEVER REALIZE WHAT AN AWESOME MOM HE TRULY HAS BUT I AM SURE HE KNOWS EVERYTIME HE LOOKS IN YOUR EYES ! I PRAY THAT THE LORD WILL ALLOW YOU TIME WITH HIM ,BUT WITHOUT ANY PAIN FOR KAI ,YOU AND KAI HAVE TOUCHED SO MANY LIVES AND ARE STILL TOUCHING MINE I LOOK EVERYDAY TOO SEE WHAT WONDERFUL STORY YOU HAVE LEFT ME TO READ AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW I CHERISH EVERY STORY THAT YOU ALLOW ME TO READ ,I FEEL AS THO I KNOW YOU AND KAI ❤ I LOVE YOU BOTH AND ALWAYS KNOW WE ALL ARE PRAYING AND SENDING HUGS YOUR WAY , GOD BLESS YOU BOTH
Kerri,
I have never met you or Kai but came across your blog through a mutual friend. I have found myself checking it daily and although it is heartbreaking and I read it through tears, yours and Kai’s spirits have touched me. Your little boy is beautiful and I certainly won’t ever forget him.
Kerri, just wanted to let you know I”ve been following your blog and you and kai are constantly in our thoughts and prayers. As I read your post today I knew I had to let you know how big of an impact Kai has had on me and everyone I share his story with. His smile, strength, courage & determination are beyond admirable. Please know his story and his life, though short in years, has touched more people than most of us will ever impact. I admire you and your strength. Being a momma isn’t all roses for anyone, but you are a beutiful example of what being a mom is all about and that is loving your child with all you are
I am so happy that Kai’s pain is better controlled. I have been heartbroken that such a beautiful little boy was whimpering while he slept. May God and the angels grant you more time to love and cherish your sweet baby boy. Your story has touched so many of us as we realize the fragility of life and that Kai’s illness could have happened to any of our children. Cancer does not discriminate. It is such a leap we all take when we become mothers and love so deeply. Your heartbreak and Kai’s spirit will never be forgotten. I have never met you and I keep seeing Kai’s eyes in my sons face. Kai will not be forgotten. He has changed the way I look at my own children. Praying for you and so happy to see your family and friends are supporting you as you do the hardest thing any mom could ever do. Praying for a miracle and that you continue to be surrounded by love. God Bless your sweet baby boy
Kerri,
I have never met you and just learned about you from a mutual friend who shared your blog. Like several others here… I have not been able to stop thinking about you, Kai and your family. Please know there is another person out there (I’m seeing there are so so many of us) hearing your story and knowing, loving and remembering your precious boy. Your story has made me hug and cuddle my own son a little tighter, a little longer and a little more often. He is 6. When he saw me crying, reading your blog, he asked me what was wrong. I told him just a little, about this beautiful little boy who is so very sick. We keep a “tzedakah” box in our home. It is a Jewish tradition of collecting change in a box until it is full and then donating to someone/people in need. He decided that we will send our next full box to your family to help in what little way we can. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. You are absolutely amazing. Peace to you and Kai, beautiful mama.
Robin
Kerri i am another mama who has read your blog start to finish through quiet sobs as my house lie asleep. Like so many of these moms have said better than i will, you have shaped me and I too will never forget kai or your writings. i was sad to read about how you will once have to tell people you had a baby — and how it’s hard to imagine that there will be people you meet in your lifetime who won’t know Kai. But look at all of the strangers even who are going to remember him. I too, have never met you but I feel that I know you and Kai – i feel we have a connection – I haven’t been able to stop thinking about your story and I felt compelled to write. I think of him now. thank you for sharing this gift – your son. he will not be fogotten.
Kerri, I don’t believe we have ever met, but I have thought of you and Kai daily since learning of your blog last week from a MoCo mama. His journey has touched the lives of many who have never met him and he will leave a lasting impression on so many of us. I will continue to follow his story, hold him in my heart, and will help wherever I can through the MoCo village. Love, hugs, and prayers of peace and comfort for your sweet baby and your family.
Kerri, you have introduced so many people, people that you may never meet but hold you and Kai in their hearts, to the beauty of Kai and being Kai’s mother. He will never be forgotten, even by people who have never met him. This little guy has touched so many hearts through your honesty and willingness to share the good, the bad, and the ugly. Al and I think of the three of you every day and check this blog every day. Your strength inspires. When you cry, we cry with you. Please don’t hesitate to get a hold of me if you need anything at all.
Kai has touched my life and I’ve never met you or him. Sending love from a stranger….!
I don’t know your family… I don’t know you… but I know you are a beautiful mother and family just from your words. I am crying for you … I can’t imagine what you are going through. I promise to do what I can, even as a stranger, to help you. What a beautiful baby… Kai will always live in memory and story no matter what.
I pray for you all everyday, you’re such a beautiful, amazing incredible family!!
E.M
Kerri…my son Gavin and I met you at MoCo during New Moms Group with Nicole. I have been following your blog and praying for you and Kai and your family every night. Kai is such a beautiful little boy and has truly touched the hearts of so many around him. You are such a wonderful and strong momma! I rock my my son every night before bed and say prayers with him and we have been including extra special prayers for Kai. We are sending all our love to you!
Kristin and Gavin
We are praying for you on this Journey. There are thousands who read your posts and do not reply or comment, but still thousands being touch in ways you may never know, but they are. Thank you for sharing your sweet baby with the world. His is very young, but his life has already touched more lives than people who live a lifetime. He is blessed to have you. I will continue praying for healing beyond mortal understanding, but also praying that no matter what happens, Jesus will comfort you always. Thank you
Dear Kerrri, Thank you so much for the update and posting the pictures of your beautiful boy. We have never met, but after reading your entire blog I keep forgetting that we don’t actually know both of you. My daughter, Maya, thinks he is “soooooo cute.” She has been praying for him in her nightly prayers. There are very few moments throughout the day that go by without a thought of Kai since I first learned about you both. Hugs to you all!
Kerri, I’m so sorry for your pain, and most of all for Kai’s pain. As mothers’ we try to do everything to protect our children. I can’t even begin to imagine what you are going through, you are so strong… that must be where Kai gets it from. You are all in my thoughts and prayers, god bless that sweet baby.
Kerri,
I think of you andKai every day when I look at my bracelet and say a little prayer. Everytime someone asks me about it I share (briefly) the story of Kai and how he’s touched my life. Every week at church someone asks about him and we continue to keep him in our prayers. I am thinking of you and Kai especially now and I hope he continues to be as peaceful and comfortable as possible. Treasure every moment, as I’m sure you are already doing. ❤ sending thoughts of comfort and strength your way. – meg 🙂
Prayers and thoughts for you and your family for comfort and peace!
Thank you for sharing this . Prayers are with you and your family. Your little boy touches my heart. Hugs and kisses little man.
Kerri, please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you all, especially little Kai. You have been blessed to have him and he you. You should know how deeply I have been touched by you and your total dedication, strength and love that carries you through this most difficult of times. I will always be touched by Kai and grateful to have known this most special little guy. He will always be remembered and honored.
My heart is forever changed by Kai’s story. I read your blog from start to finish last night after it was shared by a friend. There really are no words for what you have been through in the last two years. You are an amazing mother… you fought for every moment with your little boy and he fought because of you. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending love and peace to your beautiful baby boy. Holding you and your family in my heart now and for the journey that is yet to come.
Kerri,
What a beautiful post! You need to know that I am positive if I get to live until I’m old and gray, I will definitely remember Kai. I know I am a stranger, but our lives have been woven together for a reason. There are people who are only in our lives for moments and they touch our lives forever. I have seen you and Kai in passing (at that yoga class in Worcester in that school basement, and at a few playgrounds), but I look at the pictures you posted above and I just LOVE that kid! I know I can never say I know what you are going through, and I know a mother has a bond with her baby that is unique from all the rest – no one will ever have that same bond you and Kai share – but I can tell you that so many moms and grandmoms and dads and friends and even children now all share a very common bond– one of a sort of love and pain and hope we’ve never felt before, all for Kai. I think Kai was sent here for a reason and he is wise beyond his years. He probably understands all of this much more than we do.
Sending many prayers and love your way.
Every time I re-read your post I think of these lyrics from Once on This Island…
And the spirit of Kai touched their hearts
And set them free to love
And he stands against the lightning and the thunder
And he shelters and protects us from above
And he fills us with the power and the wonder
Of his love
And this is why
We tell the story
Why we tell the story
Why we tell the story
Why we tell the story
If you listen very hard you hear him call us
To come share with his our laughter and our tears
And there’s mysteries and miracles befall us
Through the years
We tell the story
We tell the story!
Life is why
We tell the story
Pain is why
We tell the story
Love is why
We tell the story
Grief is why
We tell the story
Hope is why
We tell the story
Faith is why
We tell the story
You are why
We tell the story
Every time I reread your post it reminds me of a song from Once on this Island….
And the spirit of Kai touched their hearts
And set them free to love
And he stands against the lightning and the thunder
And he helters and protects us from above
And he fills us with the power and the wonder
Of his love
And this is why
We tell the story
Why we tell the story
Why we tell the story
Why we tell the story
If you listen very hard you hear him call us
To come share with his our laughter and our tears
And there’s mysteries and miracles befall us
Through the years
We tell the story
We tell the story!
Life is why
We tell the story
Pain is why
We tell the story
Love is why
We tell the story
Grief is why
We tell the story
Hope is why
We tell the story
Faith is why
We tell the story
You are why
We tell the story
We are with you, mama. Love, peace, and prayers.
Praying for your little warrior, you and your family constantly. 🙂
I don’t know you at all… I found out about your blog through another MoCo mom, but I am sitting here in tears as I learn the story of your little Kai. I admire your strength as a mother and your insight into the many ways that Kai has changed your life. My heart has been touched, and I will certainly never forget your sweet little boy. You, your family, and most especially, Kai, are all in my prayers.
I just found your blog and am laying in bed just crying for you. Your baby boy is so beautiful and precious and I can’t imagine what you’re going through. Praying that God will make these last days beautiful and full of memories you can hold on to for the rest of your life. You’ll be in my prayers all the time!! Kiss your beautiful baby for me! Love and hugs!
Kerri, Every time I read your blog I am in awe of you. Your words are so clear, so thoughtful and truly tell the story of your little man, Kai. I am a fellow MOCO mom but don’t think I ever met you, but I feel like I know you. Thank you for sharing your story, your heart, and Kai. The village, the love, and all that surround you are here. We are here for you. Hugs, Heather